When A Mother Blogs

parenting is not easy

admin — Tue, 15 May 2012 19:10:27 +0000

As much as I enjoy being a mom, there are times I get tired and scared thinking of all the obligations and responsibilities. I do have two kids I need to make sure they grow up with values. And we all know they have material needs that only a parent can provide. As much as the husband helps and provides, it feels like they are my sole responsibility sometimes. Overwhelming does not even cover it. What will they be like years from now? Will they be proud of what and who they are? Will they be grateful to their parents? Will they be good people? Will we be able to provide for their every need? I don’t have the answers but I guess the best we can do as parents is to do our best. The feeling that I failed in being a good parent pops up every now and then when the little man refuses to behave or when somebody frowns at what I do. The husband assures me I am a good mother but do my kids think the same? I sure hope so. I am not perfect, I have my flaws but I also know I try to be a good mother and wife.

moving

admin — Fri, 04 May 2012 22:53:57 +0000

We are packing our stuff little by little. If everything goes good we will probably be moving in a month. For real. To our new house. Yay! Although we do not know how long it will be ours, lol. But that is another matter we will have to deal with (and decide) in the future. For now we are getting ready to move out from the old and move in to the new house. Anyway, we have boxed up some stuff that we are not using. Old clothes that I have not sorted out yet. Winter jackets, the husband’s old work clothes, a couple of his prized carhartt coveralls, shoes, computer stuff that we are not using, books, sheets and covers, and just about anything that we do not use on a day to day basis. We also have moved some furniture to our house because we have been staying there several days in a week to oversee the ongoing renovations. We are just waiting for good news on the husband’s endeavor and once it is finalized and every thing is in place then we will be able to totally go and enjoy our big yard.

big girl

admin — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 23:13:49 +0000

I took a picture of the little girl the other day and I was amazed at what I saw. She looks older! I mean, she looks older than her 16 months age. She was smiling in the picture which showed off her big teeth so her mouth looked full (she has six already). My baby girl is growing up way faster. She is also torn between being independent and wanting mommy by her side all the time which earned her the “mommy’s girl” tag. Of course daddy said that because he is jealous, lol. I love her so much. She is such a character so different than her brother but so similar at the same time. I could not even begin to explain why I said that but if you see my kids together you will know what I am talking about. I cannot wait for her to start talking to tell us what she wants and how she feels. It will be riot when she does considering her brother is witty. I know kids pick up from who they are around with and she sure is around her brother a lot so I am already bracing myself. I hope she will be good though so I do not have to deal with tantrums too much. A mother can always hope

internet withdrawals

admin — Wed, 25 Apr 2012 01:54:06 +0000

We have not had good internet connection in the last few days because we are always away from home. It is a pain and I think I am having internet withdrawals which is not fun at all. I miss being able to watch my favorite shows online while being on Facebook. I miss just reading on about anything that does not even concern me such as ITIL governance on my free time. I miss talking to my friends online and being able to read the news from here and from PI. Being reliant on the internet for years now, it makes a lot of difference when I cannot get to it when I want to. I do have a smartphone with unlimited data but it is still way different from a notebook with a fast internet connection. The sad part is I think the husband is enjoying my predicament. Sigh!

it was a bad day

admin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 15:54:48 +0000

Yesterday was a very awful day for me. For some reason I was so tired and so down. I felt like crying but the thought of crying was so tiring I could not even do it. I just wanted to crawl back in bed and sleep the day away but the kids were both up and demanding so I had to stay up. The husband must have felt it because he told me to load the kids up so we can go out. We did not have a plan to go anywhere in particular, he just drove but when we got to the mall he asked if I wanted to go in. I did but I did not buy anything. I walked like a zombie through the stores and it was a wonder I was able to find the car when I got out. I did not know what was going on but I did feel better when I got out as aimless as I was when I was inside the mall. I hope it is not an effect of the contraceptives I am taking. Maybe it was just hormones. I refuse to believe that I am depressed because it is rare when something like this happens. I do hope it is not going to be a routine though. I hate feeling miserable because I don’t want my family to see me like this.

multitasking

admin — Sat, 21 Apr 2012 02:11:35 +0000

It is bed time for us yet here I am wide awake and still online. The little girl has been asleep for hours while the little man who requested to extend his computer time will go to bed the same time as I am. He has been good today so I let him stay to play his game a few more minutes while I try to see what I can find about Focusrite while I am trying to catch up on my favorite shows online. It is a word that I have seen while browsing online and the pages I have look does not make any sense to me. I know I shouldn’t have bothered since it does not really concern me personally but I have to do something while facing my computer. It has become a habit, this multitasking, even if sometimes what I do does not make sense to me. Have I told you I am nuts? Lol. Now you know

she got a very good deal

admin — Fri, 20 Apr 2012 23:15:30 +0000

The husband and I helped his aunt fix a computer she bought from somebody she knows for ten bucks. You read it right, ten dollars. It is an HP and a really nice one too. I searched online and it originally cost almost $500. The owner sold the computer to the aunt because the charger quit working. Why they did not just order a charger online is beyond me but I guess some people have a lot of money to throw around. It was really nice and I am jealous. I told the aunt that should she come across another deal like that to think about me because I want another computer. Not necessarily new but something the little man can use and abuse because we are now down to three laptops, one for each, that I am afraid if one breaks down somebody will have to share. I don’t want to share! And I do want another computer, been wanting to have one for a year now. We can actually afford another computer but we are not buying since our old computers are still working. I am happy for her because she does need a spare since her brand new computer crashed and is now at a computer shop. She can now get online while waiting for her baby to come home. We are happy to be of help to her.

too much food

admin — Fri, 20 Apr 2012 21:37:50 +0000

My refrigerator is stuffed. It happened the day I went to the store hungry and picked up everything I saw. Most of the items were meat and sweets, not much vegetables or fruits. I should be upset over what I did because I am supposed to be on a quest to lose weight but I just could not help it. I told the husband I will eat the food a little at a time. He laughed and said he knows somebody will be reading about progene reviews pretty soon. I might but I will worry about that later. I have something pressing to do, I need to figure out how to fix the meat I bought. Whether or not to freeze half or all. The sweets will have to be dealt with. I started with the cheesecake and I am almost finished with it. I know I will regret this but the food is good. I promise not to do it again though. I hope.

spending the day outdoors

admin — Fri, 20 Apr 2012 21:27:14 +0000

We spent Wednesday outdoors. Just the little man and I, actually. I was tasked to wash some metal (?) shelves so I told him he can come out and play in the yard while I did my task. He was so happy being out running in the yard. He wanted to play with the water hose but since I was using it I told him no. He did leave me alone but he mumbled about he should ask daddy to buy him double jacket fire hose so he will have his own to play with. I told him we only use regular water hose, the cheapest we can find in the store and he did not have to go overboard. He is so silly. He says words he sees online either thru his game or ads that pops up on the screen. It makes for an interesting conversation though. He asked if we can be outside again and I told him we might once it starts really warming up.

ready for table food

admin — Wed, 18 Apr 2012 15:27:05 +0000

Or more like, she prefers table food. My baby girl has been making it plain to me that she would rather eat table food than eat any more baby food. How? She takes forever to finish a jar of baby food but when it is mac and cheese or pancakes or rice she gobbles the food down like she is in a hurry so she can ask for more. And when she smells food especially while we are in the car, she yells and will not stop until I share her whatever food we have. I am really happy that she seems to want to eat real food because baby food is getting expensive. I have to be real careful though because she is still only 15 months old and there are food that she cannot have no matter if she asks for them. I hope that she will continue to eat variety of food because her brother is very picky. At least she will balance him out